This Feeling.

This is different... the way I feel right now.
This thing pouring through my vains, pumped from heart.
For so long I'd kept my heart pulled out of me,
and now I find it beats in me, scars forming over the wound.
I am in shock that I can feel this way.

You are not always around the way I feel I need you,
But you are a part of me I didn't know.
A part that sears my skin and plays with my soul.
I open to you in ways I cannot explain,
you are that element I needed to bring me to life.

I know I will lay down in a bit,
fall into a deep sleep and find you there with me
Insomnia haunting me now as it did in my past,
it slowly breaks away, leaving me dreaming once more.
How liberating it is to find you there even when you aren't.

This feeling.....
I don't know what it is;
but I know I have searched for it for so long.
At last I can spread my words across white sheets,
staining them with the beauty you bring to me.